|Sweater: Gap; Cords: Gap; Blouse: Forever21; Bag: JCrew; Shoes: Old Navy (old)|
I've been down lately. So down that I haven't been doing my hair, or makeup, or even dressing up. I wake up, look in the mirror and gnarl at my hair, "I don't want to curl you!!" I roll my eyes at the thought of putting my face on for another day. The foundation, the concealer to cover up the dark spots, the bronzer to give me cheekbones, the eyeliner, mascara, and lipstick! I feel as though, I just took it off. And then I stare at my closet. Things go on, and then right off. It's like a tornado of clothes flying around. And all I want to do is tie my unwashed hair back in a low bun, dab on some mascara, stay in my pjs and walk out the door. I just haven't been taking care of myself. In many aspects of life. Do you ever have these days?? Or moments?? Or feelings??
I actually had a moment the other day, where I said to myself, "Katie, I think you're depressed." And I am. Sometimes, it's a struggle.
You see, when I am put together on the outside, it makes me feel more together on the inside, because I am putting effort into myself. When I don't, feelings of, "I don't care," or, "I'm too tired to care," perpetuate. Maybe it's as simple as a new lipstick. Or more challenging, like getting to the gym, or eating better. Or, not eating better. Sometimes that cupcake really helps. But whatever it is, whatever the effort, hopefully it helps happiness too.
Which is why, I'm picking myself up and wearing, what I hope to feel. It's "wearapy". For me, bright colors equal happiness. Pink happens to be my favorite. So I'm wearing it today. With a strong dose of polka dots. And a bright lip, to bring my smile back to life.